I’ve never blogged before, but I guess this is the way to start. I should have started at the beginning of the new year, but I never discovered blogging until I looked up pro-ana website. Granted, I do not, repeat, DO NOT advocate for eating disorders whatsoever, but I was looking for a forum that goes into what I’m going through with my own ED. So this is the beginning. Or I should stay I’m in the middle of beginning. Some may call it a relapse. I call it self-control. I’m not going to stand aside, eating fatty foods with the rest of my family when I could be presenting self-control and not eating with them. This is the new me. I am going to take my life and my body into my own hands and make myself the best version of me physically. I’m deciding to work from the outside in. I know I’m a good person deep inside, so I’m not too concerned right now, I just have to keep up appearances for the sake of my parents. They may fear I’m going down the wrong path, but I’m not. I’m going down a path I choose is best for me. If it bites me in the butt in the end, that’s on me. But I will not let them get in my way. Not again. This is a new year. My life is in my hands now.
Waiting for Life to Begin 